on your mark

"On Your Mark" by Chage and Aska. I revisited this song when I was playing my CD in the car, cruising through the highway tonight. I didn't even know I had this song recorded on my CD. The music video takes place in a futuristic setting. Two soldiers discover a young girl with a pair of wings and there's this one scene they are in a jeep on a highway and the girl takes off and flies. That image came to me as I was driving tonight. I felt lifted off my feet. I even forgot all my other thoughts for a moment.

I told L- that my problem occurs when I start fussing over the particular instead of looking at the whole picture. "You know what worked for me," she said, "For a whole month, I went out dancing every night."

Something was said tonight about aging and how I'm still young and how I might be confident now and all that, but the older you get, the more insecure you become. Again, the older you get the more insecure you become. I feel I need to live to disprove this statement. I can't imagine my insecurities getting worse! The older I get, I more secured I will be. Very soon, I'll see through all that's distracting me now. I'm already seeing through a lot.

Now sleep.