I need a break >_<

Just taking a break from my storywriting today. It's actually not easy trying to write an unplanned story like this, just adding on, episode-by-episode, day-by-day. Each day I try to advance the story, I try to put my characters in new perspectives, new dimensions, explore new vistas of chaos along the way, then polish it -- the latter being the most difficult part! I fear showing my writing raw, it feels like stripping in front of people. I'm not superficial. I just want to see it clearly, and I want you to see what I see, that's all.

I don't know how the story will unfold. I don't know what'll happen to them. I don't know what's wrong with Adelaide, to this day, I still don't know. How confident are you in this storyteller? Is this the way to write a story, unplanned!? Have you tried driving out in the country at night with no headlights?

This afternoon I revisited an old box of music. Inside, a song, a few lines in particular, kept whirling in my head.

假使愛長存心裡 假使我共你相距 就讓呼呼風雨問我怎面對...